I won!

I forgot to tell all of my bloggy friends that I am a winner of a "major award".

As of next February, I will be the proud owner of a new pair of boobs. Yes, you heard me...BOOBS! I won a pair of boobs in a radio auction. Okay, it's a breat augmentation for those of you who can't handle the word boob. I have wanted my ladies to be pointing upward for some time now (since I gave birth to my first child at 16...who I placed for adoption and then my little girl who I breast fed for a whole year!

I deserve this. So don't rain on my parade. If you don't have something nice to say about my boobs. Don't say nothin' at all :) But if you have words of wisdom about breast augmentation...please share!

By the way, I did get that tattoo on my stomach. I have yet to take a picture, but I will work on getting one posted soon. It turned out beautiful.

Bad Utahn!

While I was trolling the Utah blogs today...I started to feel a little guilty. I ran into women who were making gingerbread houses, taking trips to temple square to see the lights, blogging about how to wrap a Christmas present...and it goes on and on and ON.

All of the above things are the type of activities my Grandma would love me to do...but it's not me. I have tried to be a good Mormon girl, but I'm not. Morally...I'm about a 6 1/2 and Stepford wife stuff isn't for me. I prefer to see the ligts from the road, my Christmas presents look like hell. Why take the time to make them pretty when the cat is just going to scratch it right?

I don't know how these women live week to week. I admire them and I think it's great...but it's way too much energy just to get my 3 year old to ballet class once a week and get dinner on the table for the family when I can, and of course...run the business.

Maybe there's something to the Dr. Laura theory of stay at home Mom's. But then there's the world that I live in...and you know what? I like my world without gingerbread houses, temple square, and fancy wrapping paper.

Thanks for reading!

She's home!

Four days ago, I went with my family to attend Jenny's graduation from the Ark. It was the coolest, most emotional thing I have ever experienced. Her counselors talked about the day she arrived. She was high, skinny, smelled of smoke, and all the color was washed from her face.

On graduation day, she was eight months prego, pink full cheeks, and her eyes were twinkling. She is back! While in rehab, she learned how to crochet. Almost everyone in the room was proudly wearing a scarf that she had made them. She had taught all of the women in rehab how to crochet...it was the men's job to roll the womens yarn into balls...I guess it makes crochet easier.

Anyway, I hired her to work my reception desk for the holiday season. On her first day, she was 1/2 hour late. I have to give her slack...it was her first day in the real world. After work, she went to Michaels to buy some more yarn for the scarfs she is making the whole family for Christmas. She was to report home by 5:00pm. At 6:30, nobody had heard from her. We all panicked and expected the worst...a relapse.

But shortly after 6:30 she arrived at home sobbing. She had locked the keys in the car at Michael's. She only knew two phone numbers (it has been 115 days since she has used a phone). Nobody answered at those two nubmers (her mom and sister Jodi). She had a brief panick attack and then she pulled it together and asked someone for help. This kind man brought her home to get the spare key and then took her back to unlock the car.

I'm sure Jenny will have many days like her first day of sobriety...and I hope she handles them just as well. It would have been so much easier to call a drug friend, but instead she took the long way.

I did a photoshoot with Jenny yesterday to celebrate her pregnancy. I'll try to get them edited and posted soon so you can see how beautiful she is!

Over 100 days clean

Jenny has been in treatment well over 100 days at the Ark of Little Cottonwood, and she is coming home! Her graduation ceremony is this Tuesday. I can't believe the things that have gone on this past year. The TV show, the intervention, the 1st rehab, the runaway, the pregnancy, the second rehab... And now, her drug use is finally over (cross our fingers). Now her new life is ready to begin and I have faith in her. It's a newer, healthier, happier chapter in her book.

If you personally know Jenny, please reach out to her once she is home. Keep her busy. Take her to a movie, visit with her, bring dinner...whatever you can do.

The baby will be here in 50 days!

Intervention update

Jenny's Intervention episode will re-air tomorrow, December 1st, on A&E. Her episode is shared with a guy named Mike who has OCD.

The camera crew came out to see Jenny at the Ark two weeks ago. They did some filming for this upcoming show...so you will get to see an update of Jenny at the end of the episode.

I'm so proud of her!

Pole dancing an Olympic sport?

If I have anything to say about it, you will see Fitness pole dancing in the 2012 London Olympics. There is a petition you can sign if you agree with me. Check it out: http://www.petitiononline.com/polympic/petition.html

Here is a video clip of Australia's Pole Olymics champion for 2006.
She is amazing! Watch this clip and try to tell me that this doesn't take talent, hard work, training, and dedication. All of this sounds like an Olympic sport to me!



As always, you can visit my pole studio's website @ www.danceogden.com

New pictures

I took some new pictures in the pole studio. Check em out. The first two are some of the instructors messing around. The last two are me :)

I freaking love pole dancing.
Pole splits..no hands!

Armpit hang

Superman

Fallen Angel

Which tattoo?

Okay. I have decided that I'm not ready for another baby, and I'm going to wait for the new studio until I can shop around for the perfect spot.

So, I'm gonna do a tattoo. I definately want one on my stomach. I hate my stomach..so I'm hoping that putting something beautiful on it will make looking at it more barable.

I found these two on the internet. Which one do you like? I'm not going to get the "exact" tattoo as these girls...but something similar. But I don't know which one I like.




I also want my right shoulder covered with dozens of cute tattoo's that make one large colorful pretty tattoo. I want one on my sternum, my lower back, my ribs, behind my ear, my collar bone, and one on my butt. Yeah, I'm sure that's pretty much it.

I already have two on my feet and one on my ring finger.
Here's the second one I got in Vegas at Hart & Huntington


Anyway, I love tattoos, and when I'm an old lady, I'm going to be wearing flannel shirts, and long pants with elastic in them. Nobody will see any of these tatto's (except my feet)...and I will know that I lived!

Ogden's dumbest criminals.

My husband and I went to Maverick @ 10:30pm tonight to get some dill pickle seeds.
Right as we pulled up near the front doors, three men ran with beer cases to a Toyota 4 Runner. Just as the driver put her car in to reverse, a police car came speeding over the curb trapping them in their stall. Gun drawn, he told the driver and passengers to get on the ground.

This whole time, I'm wondering "How did the police officer know that this place was going to be robbed"?

The answer came to me from a homeless man who had witnessed what had happened fifteen minutes earlier. As it turns out, the same car with the same guys had been to that exact gas station 15 minutes earlier and committed the same exact crime. The first time, they got away with two large cases of beer. I guess that wasn't enough, because they returned, attempted the crime again..and got caught. I experienced the second crime.

The cop was so smart to wait in a neighboring parking lot to see if they returned. I honestly wouldn't have thought that someone would be so stupid as to return to the scene of a crime and try to commit the same exact crime.

Dumb Dumb Dumb.

The men who robbed the store looked like hardened criminals. I was happy to see them get caught (the whole parking lot was basically cheering when the squad car came to the rescue). The driver however, was a young blond girl who was probably in her late teens maybe early twenties. Why was this girl involved in this?

Anyway. It was exciting!

Getting the "itch"

My life is too stable. I have decided to mix things up. I was thinking of opening a new dance studio in either Layton or Clinton. But at the same time, I feel like I need to have another child soon. My daughter is an only child and has resorted to calling her animals her friends. A studio would be easier, but another baby would make more sense for my family.

What to do. What to do?

I thought that if I hired someone to manage the second store, I could do both..but then I'm not sure. If I do both, I'll have to be shopping for a lease and a crib at the same time. Measuring stripper poles and having monthly doctor visits. Dancing on the pole with a belly...that doesn't seem right...does it?

AAAGH!!!

Maybe I'll just go get a new tattoo. That might keep my restlessness at bay for now.

But if I do open a new studio, should it be in Layton or Clinton?

Too young

I worry about girls who come to me and say "I want to be a stripper". Let me explain that there is nothing wrong with stripping in my eyes as long as the girl is mature and understands that it is not a game or a hobby. It is a life style. I don't offer classes for aspiring strippers and I don't train exotic dancers.

But I have girls at the studio as young as 18 who can not wait to turn 21 so they can be an exotic dancer. Instead of waiting, they jump the gun and go work at the most foul hole in the wall you can find.

Let me educate you a little about Utah law. There are two kinds of strip clubs.
21 and over - Liquor is served so the dancers can only go down to pasties and a g-string.
18 and over - No liquor served, so dancers can go completely nude.

So what does this mean to an aspiring 18 year old? She can go work in an all nude club, but she can't work in a "classier" club that would require that she keep some clothes on.

I don't know what to think. I guess what I am saying is that regardless of age limit, clothing requirements, liquor laws....she will be a stripper if she wants to be. I think they should require that all girls be 21 years of age. If they must allow 18 year olds to strip, then they should be allowed to choose which type of club they dance in. It's like saying to an 18 year old, "Get naked! When you turn 21, you will have earned the right to keep some clothing on."

It's a little confusing to me!

For the sis

Here's some pictures that I took this past weekend of my sis-inlaw and her cute family!

Adult Dance & Fitness

It's about that time to use my blog as to give a shout out to my business.

Adult Dance and Fitness is located in Ogden Utah. We offer fitness pole dancing, hip hop, kick boxing, chair dancing, ballroom, body language, slip into sexy, and belly dancing. All of these classes are strictly for adults.

Pole dancing is my favorite way to get into shape. All of my students are toning up and slimming down. Pole dancing is coming out of the strip clubs and into homes and fitness centers all across the world as a way to exercise and reconnect with your sensuality.

To see a class schedule and pricing, visit www.danceogden.com
We are one of the least expensive studio's in North America.

Suck it up

I voted. But to tell you the truth, I felt like I wasn't given a candidate that really truly spoke to me. I felt like Barack was mostly talking to african americans and far left liberals and I felt like Mccain was talking to wealthy cowboys. I don't know...I'm not rich, I'm not poor...I'm just me. I'm middle America.

But can I just say that while I was watching Senator Obama's speech, my eyes welled up with tears. I believed him when he said "Yes we can". I cried when I saw Oprah and Mr. Jackson with tears rolling down their cheeks. What an amazing thing this must be for African American's all across the world. We can be anything we want to be! With hard work and motivation...anything is possible. After last night, I truly believe that.

Anyway, he will be my new president. I will stand behind him when he's right and I will voice my opinion when he is wrong. If this is really the moment when American's come together, I think we all need to go into the new year with this attitude.

I just want my president to say what he means and mean what he says. I truly hope he will follow through on all of his promises.

Oh one more thing! California once again voted no to gay marriage. And another state banned gay adoption. What is wrong with this country? I know of plenty of straight couples that put the word "parent" to shame. I know even more married couples who take the right for granted. They cheat, beat, and divorce each other.

I am thankful for my marriage and my right to be married...but I don't think that I deserve that right more than anyone else. It's very sad to me that so many people will go through this life without the rights that I am so lucky to have. Without marriage, these couples have an up hill battle with parental rights, health insurance, medical issues, and so much more.

But I do believe that I will see a man marry a man and a woman marry a woman in my life time. I really do.

I'm back

I have ran into several of my blog readers who all noticed that my blog was set to private. Everyone thinks that they did something wrong, or that I didn't like them anymore.

The true story is that I wrote a horrible post on my blog back in April that hurt the feelings of several people. I needed to close my blog to all readers while I did some bloggy cleaning. Don't bother searching for it, I've deleted it and I won't talk about it's contents...it's disgusting and socially irresponsible.

I take full responsibility for the post and admit that I was so wrong on so many levels. When I was confronted about the posting, I was very upset and felt many things including: I don't deserve to be a Mom, I don't deserve my family, I don't deserve my career, I hate myself.... and the list goes on and on.

I hope that those who were affected by that blog can forgive me. I don't deserve it, but for their own sake, I hope they can put the event aside and erase the hate that has filled their hearts for the past few weeks.

I will start posting again. Yes, I will still post juicy things...but I'm not going to not hurt people in the process...it's a heavy task, but I'm up to the challenge :)

Computer virus

My computer has a virus right now. Kinda crappy...

But I should be back to blogging soon. Have a HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Sexy Photo Shoot

My partner and I, Anji, did these photo's yesterday at the train station.
It was really cold, but they turned out great!

My new hobby

One of my best friends had a baby eight weeks ago. She doesn't have a lot of money so she asked me to take some pics with my new camera. His name is Bryken...and he is so freaking cute! Enjoy.

Buzz Kill

You'll have to disregard the last post about photography. Something happened today that made me lose my drive to start photography. I would still love to do friends and family free of charge...but as for making it anything other than a hobby...I don't think it will happen.

Free photo shoot

Hey everyone...I am finally starting my portfolio.
Here's a pic of my very first shoot. I'm going to call it Freckle Photography :)

If you or anyone you know needs a photo shoot, please let me know. I will be doing my first several shoots for free. You will get the disc with 20 superb edits.

Thanks so much!!!

The domestic animal farm.

This afternoon, I felt like I lived on a farm....not with cows or horses. No!

2 cats (1 is just visiting)
2 dogs
2 rats
1 fish

These are all of the animal related tasks I had to do today:
1. Make a vet appointment to get the male rat neutered (I'll tell you the story on another day)
2. Make an appointment to get the visitng cat shaved
3. Clean the litter box
4. Feed dog one outside
5. Feed dog two inside
6. Feed cat one upstairs
7. Feed cat two downstairs
8. Feed Fish
9. Clean fish bowl
10. Clean rat cage
11. Add food at water to rat cage
12. Make vet appointment for dog one (dog two bit dog one on the eye).
13. Fill community water bowl
14. Find lost rat #1 in the couch

Holy crap! Like I said, it's a domestic animal farm.
We really should only have 1 cat, 1 dog, and 1 rat. But in a matter of three days, our animals multiplied themselves.

How one dog became two:
My husband found a battered mix puppy in the mountains while hunting. His hip bones were showing and he had obviously been in a fight with a wild animal. So he brought the poor puppy home. His name is Moffit after the wild life area they found him in.

How one cat became two:
I have a tabby cat that stays at home with me. I have another cat that stays at my dance studio as sort of a mascot. She has been shedding all over the studio and making the customers sneeze...so I brought her home with the intention to get her shaved. She has her appointment on Monday, then she goes back to the studio.

How one rat became two
This one is interesting. The first rat (male) died of unknown illness. The second rat (female) got lost in the house. After two weeks of searching, I came to the conclusion that she had starved to death or the dog a her. So I bought a third rat (male). After one week of owning rat #3, I found rat #2 in the silverware drawer. I put rat #2 and #3 in a cage together and they immediately started mating. So that's why I have an appointment at the vets office on Friday to get rat #3 neutered. FYI, It costs more to get a rat neutered than a dog!

Pole Party

I had my first night at Rumors on Friday. It was a blast! There was always a line of atlest 15 girls waiting for the free mini pole lesson. Lots of girls gave me their contact info while some signed up for classes that night.

I loved it!

Here's some pics:

Hopeful

I went to the Ark yesterday to visit Jenny. It wasn't much of a visit. The guests weren't allowed to talk to or touch the clients.

Only certain clients got to talk to family members, and Jenny wasn't one of them.

We did get to see her though. She looked fantastic! Her face was thinned out and her body more porportionate for a pregnant woman. As we were sitting across the room, I could see the baby kicking in Jenny's belly. Everytime it happened Jenny's face would light up as she felt the baby with her hands.

There was a client who talked with one of his family members. His name is Drew. He was 34 and had been there for several months. I didn't know what his drug of choice was. He came from an extremely wealthy family on Long Island. His parents planned to give over 100K upon completing treatment. His brother was at the meeting and insisted that Drew left the money alone. "The worst thing you can give a recovering addict is a load of money". Drew got upset and insisted that after treatment, he would travel back to Long Island by himself to visit friends and collect his money.

Everyone in the room thought that was a bad idea.

Anyway, there were some frustrating stories such as Drew's...but there were some very inspiring stories.

I can't wait for Jenny to get to talk to us and share her experiences at recovery. She is still on restriction and can't talk to family or make any phone calls at least for another week.

It was good. She has changed!

Jenny Update

I got the invite to go with the family to see Jenny tomorrow. I was so excited until I heard this:

We will be attending group therapy. I need write down a very brief example of how Jenny's addiction has affected my life. I am trying to think of how my life has been affected by her addiction...it's a harder question than you think.

She really didn't do anything to me personally. I kind of invited myself into the problem by contacting Intervention and spending dozens upon dozens of hours preparing for her departure. When she failed at her first attempt at rehab, I spent a dozen more hours trying to find another place. I willingly did all of this. She didn't ask for it...but I knew she needed it.

So other than time away from family and work...I can't think of anything. Sure there were some sleepless nights when she stressed the hell out of me, but it isn't something that all of us didn't feel.

So I'm just trying to think of what to say.

Anyway, I will try to snap a picture with her tomorrow before we leave.

If you have any kind words for Jenny, please comment and I will print them all off and give them to her.

Thanks!

New relationship

No! It's not a new man...it's a cool little bar called Rumors.
They have made every Friday night "Pole Dancing Night with Adult Dance & Fitness".
So, if you ever want to see my sweet pole skills, come see me every Friday from 10:00pm-Midnight.

Everyone at the bar is invited up to the stage for a short pole dancing lesson. At the end of the night, they will hold a pole dancing contest with a cash prize!!!

Here's the flyer:



Hope to see some of the bloggies hit the night scene. It will be fun!
Rumors is a non-smoking dance club (not a strip club).

I got my new camera!

I've been a picture taking fool for the past 24 hours. Here's what I've done:







Thanks for letting me share!

I hate people!

I did a search for Jenny's Intervention on youtube.com
You wouldn't believe the things that people are saying about her and the family!
Here are my top five least favorite comments:

1. Any notice she looks like a BULL_DYKE? Also, the mormon church is a joke....

2.Fucked up Mormons, and they are surprised they fuck up their own.

3.They aired that Jenny has been sober for 4 whole stinkin' days? Holy Smokes that's clutching on straws.... 4 DAYS!!!!

4.they keep speaking about "secrets" and how her closest sister has "secrets" and i am under the assumption as well that that "secret that is killing her" is that she's gay

5.i'm sorry but my gaydar went through the roof, and its not just the hair
Since Aug 26 2008??? That was just last week, I had to go back and do a double take, then I was like.... wait, is it 2009?That is so sad.
The fact that she got pregnant is even worse. It didnt say "She began a relationship with a man, and became pregnant." it said, "Jenny left rehab after one month and relapsed on heroine. Shortly after she learned she was pregnant." She will probably be just another single mother, who doesnt take care of her kid. Like the world needs another one of those!

What the fuck is wrong with these people? I think that it's very brave to sit behind your computer and talk a bunch of shit about people you know nothing about. I believe there is a special place in hell for people like this. At least, I hope there is.

If you would like to chime in and let these people know how cowardly they are, follow this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HLNqGiSjcBg

Death in our house

If you remember my post from last week about my daughters pet rat, you'll be sad to learn that the rat was humainly euthanized this evening. My daughter basically loved it to death. She took it everywhere she went, dressed her up, fed her pop tarts and fruit loops, and tried to give the rat a drink of water out of her cup.

The rat, named mouse, came down with a cold 5 days ago and never recovered. I tried leaving her in her cage for the past two days, but she didn't eat or drink....everytime I passed the cage, she gathered enough energy to climb on the cage door showing me that she wanted out.

She was dying and she didn't want to be alone.

You probably think I'm crazy, but I love animals...even tiny rats.

I was holding her tonight waiting for her to die when I noticed a piece of food stuck in her mouth. She tried to eat, but couldn't. I couldn't get the food out of her mouth. She couldn't open up enough for me to get it. I broke down in tears and jumped in my car. Off to the emergency vet we went. I cried the whole way. I'm sure the lady at the front desk thought I was crazy when I could hardly push aside my tears to speak. I asked that she be euthanized. I paid $20.44 and took her home in a box. My husband will bury her tomorrow when he gets home from work.

My daughter doesn't understand what happened to "Mouse". I told her that she's all gone, but she keeps telling me, "we will get her tomorrow okay? She'll be home tomorrow". When I tell her no she won't she yells at me.

We haven't buried the rat yet. Would it be beneficial for her to see the burial? Or should I just go get her another rat and claim that it is in fact the same "Mouse"? I don't know what to do. Help me!

Photo Shoots

A friend of mine and myself have started doing photo shoots for women. Not glamour shots! In our photo sessions, women get in lingerie, some go nude, while others just like head shots. I had my photo taken while we were practicing one day...and here's what we got:








Cost: $100
You get cd with all photos and 20 edits.
Visit www.schoolofsexy.com for the info

Thanks for reading!

I had a fantastic date last night

My husband and I went to a new restaurant last night. It was pretty fun. Our waiter asked me if I wanted a free chocolate shake...and then he began to shake his body really fast (he was a black guy). It was pretty funny :)

Then we went to see one of my friends at her new job. After that, we went to my dance studio and the two of us played on the poles. It was pretty freaking fun! He was impressed by my sweet moves :)

Anyway, today I went to church again...pretty much the same. My hubby is going to go for a motorcycle ride this afternoon while I get to clean the disaster that has been building up for weeks.

P.S. I'm waiting for my new camera to come in the mail. It is a very nice one...so hopefully I'll captivate everyone with some inspirational photographs...just kidding. It's not going to be that great. Maybe I'll take a picture of my messy house to start with.

A new gig

A night club has just asked my company to be part of the weekly entertainment. Every Friday night, you can see me and my pole teachers performing our death defying pole tricks at Club Rumors.

It's going to be fun! After we perform, they will hold an "amateur" contest for the customers. They will give away cash prizes, a pole, and other stuff.

I'm so excited! I love performing...especially on a pole :)

*This is not a strip club. It's a non-smoking bar.

Jenny Update

Okay, okay...I'll give you what little I know.
Here's a little background. Jenny is a hairstylist (actually, she WAS a hair stylist). She lost her licence as a result of the drugs.

Anyway, she is still in rehab...and doing great. She had to attend a hearing that would determine if she would ever get her licence back or if it would be permanently revoked. She was expecting the worst since it had been a year since the suspension, and she still hadn't got her act together.

Her mom picked her up from rehab for the hearing and she went. They did not suspend her licence. As it turns out, someone on the committee board had seen the TV episode and was rooting for her sobriety. So they granted her another three months. They said if she completes treatment, she can have her licence back.

This is a wonderful thing! Jenny has not been able to work in a salon for a year...this great news will give her something to look forward to when she gets out.

Her mom told me that she was much more optimistic than she had been in a long time. She has learned how to knit from one of the other residents...and she is knitting the baby a blanket. She didn't ask once to use her mom's cell phone during the day trip. (Normally she would be begging to make some sort of contact with the drug world). Her mom took her back to "The Ark" after the hearing, Jenny gave her a hug, and got out of the car. No tears, no begging, just a girl who is obviously ready to make a change.

I get to go spend the day with her next Thursday.

I will let you know how it goes.

The new teacher

Meet my new teacher Hollie (Sia). I just hired her last month.

She is a former exotic dancer who is now a stay at home mother of one. Did I mention that her husband is a tattoo artist? She is completely covered with over 50 tattoo's....and I like her!

She isn't like me in many ways, but we love pole dancing and we love our daughters, she has taught me a lot.
We made a video of her and put it on youtube.com to promote the studio. It was her first computer experience. She doesn't get out much :)

Enjoy!

Pictures from this week

Evan Jo had her first day of dance class!!!



She loved it! The teacher was worried that she might be a little young to start dance...but she did great.
In other news: I came home from work a few days ago only to find that my husband had completely gutted my upstairs bathroom. He's going to attempt to tile the walls, new paint, and a new sink, vanity, and faucets.


When I woke up this morning, I found this had crawled out of a hole in the wall that my husband had made to repair a pipe:

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Just kidding! My mother in law thinks that every home in my city is rat infested including mine! I'm hoping she reads this :)

I bought this rat for my daughter yesterday as a pet. Rat's are very intellectual and very lovey. They love to be petted and wrapped up in a warm blanket. In my family, we always named our rats "Mr. Fink". I wanted to keep the tradition alive, but my daughter insists that we name her Mouse. It's cute. I think we'll keep it. Here's some pictures that I took today with "Mouse".


The rat is very small right now, but she is a king rat and will grow to almost a foot long :0...call me crazy, but they really are the best pet for a child to have. They don't bite, they don't run away, and they are the cleanest rodent you can have.



Hope you enjoyed!