Learning how to live the single life and trying to make the best of it. I love my daughter with everything I've got. My hobbies are dance, playing with my pets, and anything to do with water.
Pole beginners - When doing your spins, keep your arms stretched high. Try to hang all of your weight vs. trying to lift with your biceps. When you hang from your arms and creat a big "swoop" with your legs, you will enjoy a much smoother and faster spin. I try to make at least three rotations on all of my spins.
For the more advanced pole dancer - When trying a shoulder mount, pull on the pole as if you were trying to throw a 200 lb man over your shoulder. Shoulder mounting is about the arms and abs not about the legs.
Also, when doing any invert, try to avoid springing off of your leg or swinging into an invert. You will get more physical benefits if you use your core and your arms to lift yourself upside down. Momentum and swinging is like training wheels. Once you don't need them anymore, get rid of them and never go back!
I have been separated for a little over a week and I am truly the happiest I've ever been. My advice would be to not marry until you're at least 25. We got married when we were very young and I did not know who I really was. When I turned into my true self, my husband didn't like it. It's not his fault...but it is something that I couldn't contain any longer.
I'm glad he ended it because I would have lived that way for the rest of our lives....I didn't want to be the bad guy.
We plan to still do things together as a family for the sake of little Evan Jo.
I put a deposit down on a town home in the heart of Ogden Utah. It's in the Junction plaza. It's a brand new town home and I can see the megaplex theatre right from my bedroom window. I can walk to the children's museum, indoor skydiving center, rock climbing wall, perry's egyptian theatre, and so much more in under 2 minutes.
I am stoked! There are 3 bathrooms and two bedrooms and the place includes a washer and dryer and a dish washer. Those items were at the top of my want list.
If everything goes well I will move in this weekend!!!!!
I haven't told anyone about my husband leaving me. I have been too ashamed and embarassed. Lots of tears shed crying to myself and my dogs ;) I finally told my mom this morning and I feel so much better! I can't do this by myself and I realize that.
Yesterday I posted a blog saying that I would wait for my husband to fall back in love with me. And you know what? It's bull shit that I should have to settle for someone who isn't in love with me and who isn't physically attracted to me in hopes that he will "change his mind". I am a strong woman. I own my own business, I take care of myself, and I think I deserve nothing but the best.
So I'm not going to settle and wait around for someone who isn't crazy about me.
Yesterday, he informed me that he wants the house. Isn't that interesting? He is the one who wants a divorce and now he wants my family home. I didn't ask for a divorce but now I'm the one who has to live without a husband AND move out of the home I have remodeled, loved, and cared for.
So I am going apartment hunting in downtown Ogden today. I've always dreamed of living in a large city with no yard and honking horns out my bedroom window (really). Ogden isn't a big city....but it is a city.
I'm excited for the future but sad about the past. I know I'm only on day four of the separation/divorce...but I feel like I'm going to be much happier :) I shouldn't settle for someone who is reluctant to be with me. It has been a 6 year fight to try to make him be passionate about me and I'm done! I'm tired of watching happy couples hold hands and kissing in public. It hurts.
The hardest part is going to be watching our daughter live the way we grew up. I never thought that my daughter would grow up with divorced parents.
I'm still not sure why he left. Sure, I have a strange job which I love...but I cook, clean, and I love him and the family and life we have.
I'm brainstorming ways to reel him back in. He always seems to respond well to jealousy, but it seems a bit juvenile. I could sit home every night and try to make him feel sorry for me, but what if he goes out all the time while I'm at home being pathetic.
After much thought, I think I'm just going to go about life as it comes and if he should decide to fall back in love with me, I will drop everything and go running back to my man. I don't think this will happen in weeks or months. I think he needs to experience single life so he can find what he really wants. If it's me, great...I'm here. If it's not me, I will have a new life that I will move forward with.
Operation get my husband back will probably take about a year if it is going to be done correctly. So I have put an ad online for a room mate and I have laid off some employees so I can make my house payment and stay in my home.
I will never divorce him without a fight.
Through all of this, my best friend is away for the next two weeks and I haven't told any of my other friends or family. I'm feeling pretty alone. I made one of my employees sleep at my house last night so I wouldn't be alone (yes it was a girl).
Snuggling in bed this morning with my husband, my daughter, and her pet rat. I embrace my husband for a few minutes and then ask the silly question "Do you love me?"
He replies, "I've been meaning to talk to you about that....I am not in love with you anymore."
So he is packing his bags right now and then it's off to his Mommy's house.
It's hard...I'm still in love and I feel like I got completely blind sided. I'm numb right now...don't know what the next step is.
Okay, so I was vague earlier. I had an investor approach me about franchising my business. He would like to franchise it to 10-15 stores across the nation and then turn around and sell it in three years. His company would supply all the money needed to set up that many dance studio's. All he asks from me is that I train the teachers and managers while also traveling to each location and getting each store running efficently for 2-3 weeks at a time.
He has done this to a very well known hotel chain...and it worked. He made more money in that deal than I care to think about.
I know the investor pretty well and he is very excited about my business and the kind of profit it could make. He is a very good friend of the mayor of my town.
I was very excited the first few days about making 6-7 digits per year...and then I came back down to earth. I know that I could be wealthy with my business. Pole fitness is on the rise and there is much money to be made.
However, the more I thought about it, I couldn't help but think that I would be hurting myself, my family, and my love for dance. If I were to just do the business aspect of it and stop teaching, choreographing, and interacting with my teachers and students...I would go crazy.
I haven't given the investor an answer yet, but I'm leaning toward opening a few more studio's in nearby counties with one of my friends. That way, I can still put my personal touch on everything while spending time with my family and keeping my sanity.
I don't know what to do! What does everyone else think??? Big money franchise or mom and pop dance studio????
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Our facility has 10 poles, crash mats, wood flooring, and a very exotic setting. Pole fitness is the latest trend in exercise for strength and weight loss.
For all the details, visit our website at www.danceogden.com. You can also contact us by phone at 801-678-0225.
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Pole fitness will do wonders for your self confidence and body shape. Don't wait another week. You deserve this!!!
I got a business proposition today that I just can't refuse. My actions in the next 6 months will take me and my family to never before seen places. I feel a lot of pressure to succeed on this deal. I am so stressed...but very excited !!!
I have the worst memory. I am sure that I will have some form of alzeihmers when I am older. I don't remember anything about my life before the age of 13. A few random memories, but not much. I always lose my keys, and my grandpa suffers from alzeimers.
So, I'm going to start writing things that I would like to remember (while I'm still sharp).
- When I put on lip gloss or lip stick in front of my daugther, I'm not allowed to rub my lips together. She will scream "Don't eat your lip stick!"
- When she has an ear ache, she says "Momma. I have a bird in my ear."
- She doesn't say polka dots...she says polka bots :)
- She insisits on climbing through my car door to get to her car seat. It drives me crazy!
- She calls her Grandma Nielsen "Grandma Forsey". My mom has a horse...so what she reallly means is "Grandma Horsey". My dad is "Grandpa Mountain"...because he lives in the mountains. I have taught her to call them these names. In our family, everyone is divorced and she would have a Grandma Nielsen, Allgood, Burroughs, and Chapman. I think it's better to come up with cute names since there are so many to remember.
- She has the worst studder I've ever heard from a child her age. We're going to check into it after her fourth brithday if it doesn't improve. Personally, I think it's cute...but I don't want her to be teased by other children.
That's good for now. When I think of more, I will post again.
This morning, I was woken by two ambulances at a neighbors house. The woman is in her 50's and has a gentleman living with her. Not sure if he's a son, boyfriend, or husband, or just a friend.
Anyway, I waited at the window to see the gernie...wondering if it would contain a dead body or an injured person. It was the woman, she was injured. So I went about my day and when I came home tonight, there had been a wheel chair ramp built for her front step.
Concerned, I walked across the street to check up on her. There were three men working outside on the ramp. I asked one of them if she was okay.
"Yeah she's fine. Who in the hell are you?"
I told him I was the neighbor and I was here to ask if she needed any cleaning, dinner, yard work? He declined any of my offers and walked in the house and slammed the door.
What in the hell is wrong with some people? These neighbors have never been that nice, and I will never offer a hand to them again. But I ask...what age, income bracket, job title, life situation gives anyone the right to act like a jerk? My answer is none!!! There is no reason to treat people with disrespect, especially those who are offering help.
Quite annoying.
On a lighter note, I designed a logo for my brothers graduation present. He is a club DJ and lots of people have been asking him if he has a business card. So, I made him a logo and put it on a T-shirt and also some matching business cards. What do you think of the logo?
His DJ name is DJ C-Cee. Notice the two e's hidden in the logo and the headphone jacks coming down the bottom. I love it!!! I hope he does too.
The competition went great. One of my girls took second in the advanced category. Another took second in the intermediate category and another took third in the beginners division.
Everything went great until the other pole studio in Utah decided to claim "bragging" rights to the competition. I'm a little pissed right now. I put so much work into this thing and tried to be fair to everyone, only to have some of the competitors turn this into a very immature high school like competition.
Oh well. My girls rocked it and I was very proud of them. I'm refuse to participate in this drama. That's why I'm only writing this to my bloggy friends :)
I remember my job at the credit union like it was yesterday. I was a teller (cashier)...basically at the bottom of the todem pole. I had lots of friends at work and we loved to talk shit on the management. We all bought scooters one year and rode to work every day and parked next to each other. We were so cool :)
Now, I own a business and I am the management. My employees talk shit on me and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm a good boss and I pay very well...but for some reason, people will always find nasty things to say.
Anyway, I miss the friendships I used to have with co-workers. But I know that the 20 year old girl at the credit union would kill to be at the "top".
Oh well...you can't win or lose. All I can do is run my business to the best of my ability and come home and love on my man and my super cute teenie weenie daughter whom I love to teenie weenie pieces.
WARNING! This post is not sexy, contains no controversy, or anything mean. But it is a little disgusting.
Okay. So I am a huge animal advocate...but my freaking cats are irritating the hell out of me.
Every day when I get home, my house smells like poop or pee. No, my cats aren't pooping or peeing on my floors. Does anyone have a guess as to why an entire house would smell of animal waste without any acutally being on the floor?
I'll tell you how. The stupid things go potty in their litter box and then refuse to cover the poop or pee up by simply kicking kitty litter on top of it. So the smell just goes upward into my stair well, kitchen, and living area.
Last night I felt like the luckiest woman in the world. When most men repress their women and make them feel dirty, my man is by my side letting me explore my world. Many women come to my studio craving the feeling of sexy. Some never make it to class because of a boyfriend or husband who forbids them from trying pole dancing.
I think it's near insanity for any man to not want their gal to pole dance. What kind of an ego driven, self centered bastard are these women married to?
I understand that some women don't want to experience anything sexy because of religion or morals....that I get. But when a woman wants to do it and her guy is pressuring her into false "morals" and "values"...I want to throw up in my mouth.
Sexy is natural. Sexy is normal. In Utah, most of us women are told that sex is secret and should never be talked about. Unusual sex positions are dirty. Talking to your girl friends about sex is trashy, and taking any sort of sexually oriented class is slutty.
Get over it Utah. The women are liberating themselves. So, you can join us and support us (like my cutie-pu-tootie husband) or you can get out of our way!
My husband is leaving me this weekend to go to the sand dunes in Southern Utah. Normally, I'm cool with being independent and by myself...but he has been an EXTRA good husband for the past few weeks. So I'm gonna miss him like crazy.
To keep me busy, I've made some play dates with my friends. We're going to go to the D.I. and do some fun thrift shopping. I thought I'd take my daughter to the childrens museum or to the new Earth movie.
I'm also going to try rock climbing at the new rock gym by the Junction in Ogden, and I'm going to go see my friend dance at her new job she just started.
I know I told you a bit about the controversy earlier...but here is just one of about a dozen stories fox 13 did on the event.
We were also fortunate to be covered by KSL news, Standard Examiner, Davis County Clipper, Salt Lake Tribune, and shock radio.
It has been a crazy couple of weeks and I just can't wait for it to be over:)
Here is a column that a journalist did in support of our event:
Count us among those intrigued about the Miss Pole Dance Utah competition slated for May 16 at the Davis Conference Center in Layton.
It's an athletic event. That's what dancing is, athletics that requires strong physical conditioning. While they pole dance, contestants will have to be dressed and stay dressed. Any so-called "wardrobe malfunctions," says Meagan Burroughs, whose Ogden dance and fitness studio is one of the sponsors, will result in immediate disqualification and a quick hook off the stage.
Still, a county official has expressed concern over the potential prurient appeal of the competition. Davis County Commissioner Bret Milburn wants to know more about what exactly a pole-dancing competition is. As we mentioned, we, too, are interested.
But Milburn is concerned it's adult entertainment. After taking a peek at the event's Web site, misspoledanceutah.com, the commissioner said, "I have an issue with how it is portrayed on its Web site. It doesn't show me any sort of athletic component to it. It doesn't speak fitness. This speaks something else."
We went to the Web site. There is an attractive woman dancing in a manner that might be considered akin to gymnastics. The site makes it clear the Davis event is trying to move pole dancing from an entertainment largely considered prurient into an athletic competition.
We have to disagree with Milburn's assessment that there is no athletic or fitness connected to pole dancing. We'd be willing to wager a fitness bar that Commissioner Milburn can't imitate the athletic move of the pole dancer on the Web site. We know we can't.
All joking aside, in the past few years, pole dancing has become a preferred option toward physical fitness for many women. That's why there will be many women at the May 16 event. Some will be there with their teenage children, as ages 12 and under will not be admitted. The pole dancing will focus on the physical aspects of the competition. Those seeking a prurient thrill will be disappointed.
"This is just tricks, no hips involved, no bootie popping, no provocative movements or sexual gestures, including touching yourself," Burroughs told the Standard.
We'll be very disappointed if this event doesn't stay on the conference center's calendar. We don't want it to suffer the same type of prejudice that has hampered mixed-martial arts cage fighting, another athletic competition that is rapidly growing in popularity but has been shut down by officials who are out of touch with the changing culture in Utah.
Below is a letter to the editor that an obviously closed minded individual wrote concering pole dancing and it's one degree from prostitute:
Rationalization is "to create an excuse or more attractive explanation" (Webster's). It hides true motives behind a fake explanation which its users hope others will buy. The Standard Examiner editorial board provides a fine example in their support of public pole dancing, with the disingenuous excuse that such entertainment involves athletic moves and is "akin to gymnastics." Uh huh.
The counter to rationalization is to find the main purpose or motive. What is the main purpose of pole dancing? Anyone old enough to vote knows it is to erotically entertain. Duh. Grondahl's cartoon on the same page deftly demonstrates this point: the man watching the dance rationalizes, but his wife is smart enough to see through him. I'm sure that many accomplished prostitutes are able to perform athletic moves akin to gymnastics. Perhaps we should have a prostitution skills competition? The difference is one of degree only.
The editorial derides "officials who are out of touch with the changing culture of Utah." They seem to think that changing culture is necessarily good. They have demonstrated their blindness to the negative effects of some culture change, however, in their own paper. Once the Examiner had a strong ethic of honesty in requiring all authors they published to identify themselves by name. Now they publish anonymous sniping at letters to the editor, somehow in the name of free speech. It has the opposite effect of course. It takes greater fortitude to put your name out there when you know it may be attacked, even more when the attacks are anonymous, and worse, with the attack implicitly supported by the paper. This is indeed changing culture; from responsible to yellow journalism. I suppose there will be attacks and ridicule of this letter. Anonymous of course. That way the Examiner can claim they have nothing to do with it, while giving tacit support and endorsement. Rationalization and changing culture indeed.
As many of you already know, Davis County commissioners are trying to ban my pole dancing competition on may 16th at the Davis Conference Center. Many news outlets have been following the story including FOX 13 news, The Standard Examiner, Salt Lake Tribune, and KSL news.
Since this is my blog, I'm going to say what I want to say about this happening. The athletic women who are competing in this event are not strippers! They are women who are on a mission to change the way this world looks at pole dancing.
Did you know that pole dancing was origionally a circus event? In europe, a gentlemen's club decided to put one in their establishment. The rest is history. All we are doing is taking the pole back to its origional roots.
One of my favorite quotes: "Not all strippers pole dance, and not all pole dancers strip".
For those who don't know, I am from Utah and I am trying to host this event in one of the most conservative counties in the state. Wish me luck!
Below are the links to read the news stories. The one that FOX 13 did was great!
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